Keep Moving On

So, as per usual, I’ve taken a quite long “hiatus” from writing posts. Why must I be so unreliable, so forgetful? I still wonder that myself. A lot has happened since my last post in August, but I feel that most of it isn’t relevant to what I’m going to write today.

Today, I feel sad. And I’ve felt sad–depressed even–for a few days now. Seasonal depression? School? Stress? I don’t know. All I know is that when I feel like this, I must break the cruel cycle of making myself more depressed. You know exactly what I mean.

It seems like a natural instinct to crawl up into a little ball, play sad music and cry yourself to sleep every time life gets tough. And, believe me, that’s all I want to do most days. I want to barricade myself into my room, and melt-away into my loving bed.

But what am I accomplishing by doing that? I’m still wasting my time away, and the problem is far from fixed. So, I have been actively trying to help myself when I feel like this.

I do not claim–nor am I–a mental health specialist at all; take everything I say with a grain of salt. Is that how the saying goes? I’m not sure. These are just a few things I do to kick-depression-to-the-curb. Or kick it under the bed. Wherever is fine.

1. Get the heck off social media

Oh, yes. We are ripping the band-aid off. The ever-so comforting pictures, videos and texts of social media are to be ridden…and who knows how long. Because let’s face it, we all are dependent on social media in some way. I know I am, and that’s why I had to stop.

I was constantly looking at others’ profiles and comparing myself to them.

Why am I not getting that many likes?

Why don’t I have that many followers?

Does anybody like me?

I wish I had friends like her.

And all it [social media] was doing for me was making me insecure and depressed. There was no ‘social’ aspect to it at all; I didn’t feel connected to anyone–I felt depressed and lonely.

So, I quit. I decided that I couldn’t take it anymore, and I was just making myself miserable. I deleted the apps off my phone and iPad–not the account itself.

I’m not going to say “I immediately felt relieved” because I didn’t. It felt fine. It felt normal. I wasn’t a changed person just by deleting the apps. In fact, I didn’t even notice they were gone until I started reaching for them.

I would get an idea in my head, or think of someone–usually a celebrity or public figure–and I wanted to search them on social media. It wasn’t until I grabbed my phone and realized that the apps were gone that I saw how dependent I was on social media.

I was constantly grabbing for my phone all-day, and the day after and after….you get it. So, why was I doing this? Well, I’ve spent a good-portion of my life on social media. I’ve utilized it in various ways.

But it started to become too much. It became addictive. It became evil. I couldn’t take how dependent I had become. I couldn’t believe I had turned into that person who sought—but never found–validation from social media.

I looked at pictures of pretty girls and their pretty lives and their pretty pictures and their pretty everything. Pretty, pretty perfect. I wanted to explode. I wanted to scream. I wanted to throw-up. I wanted the truth.

I’m not perfect, and social media is not realistic and I just want someone to acknowledge that. Okay? Thanks.

No one posts realistic photos on social media–very rarely do you see that. No one posts their 2-am-I-don’t-know-what-I’m-doing-with-my-life panic-attack on social media. No one posts photos of them when they’re at their worst, or when they feel like the sky is falling.

Why don’t we see these posts? Because they’re not glamorous. They are real. They are the truth. And sometimes the truth is uncomfortable. And sometimes we don’t like talking about things that are uncomfortable.

But I need that. I need to see realism. I need to see things that aren’t edited, edited, edited. Social media could never give that realism I was seeking, so, I quit.

I opted out early, breaking the contract I never wished to sign. The contract of loathing, depression, loneliness, low self-esteem and much, much more.

Social media begged; they weren’t willing to let me go easily. Oh, no. Days were filled with thoughts of “what ifs?”

Did I make the right decision?

Am I missing out?

What if someone posts something cool?

How will I feel when I see everyone else scrolling on their phones? 

I’ve learned to live with those thoughts. Yes, I made the right decision. Yes, I could be missing out–but guess what? It’s fine if I do. I told myself the answers to all these lingering questions.

You will be fine without social media. You do not need validation from social media. People who make real attempts in real life to engage with you–your true friends–are the only people you should be worrying about. Do not let anyone, and I mean anyone, ever make you feel like you are not worthy, like you are not beautiful. You are beautiful. You are powerful. You are a dandelion, blowing in the sun-grazed fields. And, remember, not everyone likes dandelions, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t every-bit beautiful. 

I tell that to myself, but feel free to tell that to yourself, too. Stand up, look in the mirror and repeat that to yourself. Keep saying it until you absolutely mean it.

2. Have real experiences 

Did you forget that we were doing a list because the first step was so long? Me, too.

What are real experiences? What do I mean by this? Aren’t most experiences real?

Don’t fret if you don’t understand. Real experiences–according to myself–are experiences that you live fully in. They are the experiences that make you forget your pain, your phone or whatever else you’re trying to forget.

Real experiences should be exhilarating. They should make you smile so much that your cheeks start to hurt. They should make your skin tingle and sparkle. They should make everything you touch turn to fireworks.

Don’t take that last one too literally, but you get the point. You should be spending your time doing things you love because your time is valuable. Yes, you heard that right. Your time. Not your mother’s or your lover’s or or whoever else’s time. Yours.

Claim it. Stake a sign that screams “THIS IS MY TIME!” Make it yours. Cherish it. Do something worthwhile.

3. Claim your body 

Remember before how I said you should claim your time? Well, guess what? You can claim your body, too.

But, what the heck does this even mean? Claiming my body? Isn’t it already mine?

Of course, your body is yours–that’s how it should forever be. But is it really yours? Do you love your body? Do you appreciate your body? Do you sit-down and write a thank-you note to your body?

Love your freaking body; it’s yours. All yours. To cherish through sickness and health ’til death due you part. Yeah, it’s getting serious.

All jokes aside, your body is yours. You should claim it as such. Tell the world…no…show the world you love your body. Dress the way you want. Style your hair the way you want. You want to rock a red lip? Go for it.

Your body is yours and you don’t owe the universe a single thing from your body.

Once you start living your life on the same side as your body, and not constantly in a civil war with it, life gets easier. Trust me.


So, that was my list. It was mine. It may not be yours. There is no recipe, no simple solution to living a happy life. But, a happy life is worth living and you should fight for it until you get there.

Everyone deserves to be happy. Everyone deserves to be loved. Everyone deserves to feel important.

I’m not where I want to be right now in life, and that’s okay. It’s 100% okay to feel uncertain, depressed, sad, scared, lonely, stressed, weary. It’s also 100% okay  to feel certain, happy, elated, joyful, content, pleased, loved. You can feel them both at the same time. Or you could feel none at all.

Thank you for reading. Or maybe skimming. Or whatever. But, if you made it to the end, I thank you. These thoughts of mine, they consume me. And writing is my escape. So, thank you for aiding in that.

Keep your head up. Keep smiling. You can do this.

Sending all my love, good vibes and plenty of pixie dust your way.

May you seize the day. Or the night. (Yes, I see you night-owls.)



So, I’ve been terrible at writing. I blinked and, somehow, summer has dwindled down. My summer has been wonderful. I went on vacation, spent time with family, and enjoyed nature.  Disney was amazing, as usual. We stayed for 6 days. It gave us plenty of time to enjoy the parks, relax at the hotel, and explore new wonders we’ve yet to see. The new land, Pandora, is fantastic. Everything is intractly themed. From the ground you walk on, to the floating mountains in the sky. It’s breathtaking. I’ve been busy stressing about college. I’ve come to understand truly how much college costs. I’m broke. Tuition, books, etc, etc. My classes start the 21st, so my blog posts will, yet again, be random. But thanks for reading, if you are!!! 

Check out my social media for more posts. 

Red, White, and Blue

My past week has been filled with stress, anxiety, and fireworks. So let’s jump into it. 


Some personal/family matters happened that I won’t get into for the sake of other people’s privacy, but it consumed most of my time. Not much to blog about. 

Tuesday, July 4th 

Yesterday I spent the day with my boyfriend and we decked ourselves out in patriotic attire. I love the Fourth of July. It’s such a fun, festive day that can be about family, friends, or whatever else you want. You can spend it doing pretty much anything. And of course, grill-outs and the food make it even better. 
Above you can see some pretty spectacular fireworks from last night. During the day, we went to a festival and had some food. (2 pork sliders with mac and cheese.) It was amazing!! But then we left fairly quickly after the heat was too strong. Later on that night we laid out on the grass to watch some fireworks. It was a pretty mellow day, but still filled with plenty of patriotic events. 

How was your 4th of July?!

Come back next week for another post!!! 

Weekly Updates

So, I think I’m going to start a new thing for this blog: Weekly Updates!! That way I’ll be more consistent with posting, and the posts will be longer because they’ll be covering an entire week. Typically, I think I’ll post them on Saturday or Sunday, but I just wanted to try it out for today.

Last week I decided to go cruelty free and get rid of any products that weren’t. And it was a lot!! Which was sad because I was getting rid of a lot of products, but even more sad that animals were suffering for my products. So I gave the products to my family, and now will only be using cruelty free products. If you’re interested in doing the same, here are some links that provide great information about what companies do and don’t test on animals.

Feel free to navigate those sites and find out information about cruelty free products!!!

Saturday, June 24th was my sister’s birthday. She turned 20!!! We celebrated by decorating her room and the basement in pink balloons, rose petals, happy bday banners, and plenty of BB-8 decor. She loved it, so we (myself and her boyfriend) were happy we could do that. Then we went out to lunch at Red Robin where I had a four-cheese grilled cheese sandwich, and it was to die for. Seriously. After stuffing our faces with delicious foods, we headed over to Top Golf. If you don’t know or haven’t been to Top Golf, you’re missing out. It’s so much fun!!! It’s basically the same concept as bowling, but with golfing. Just look it up. You don’t be disappointed. 

My day ended with a fire. It was a cool, breezy night. I spent some time with my parents, and we talked the night away. 

Well, I know my week wasn’t all that exciting, but look forward to a new blog post Saturday or Sunday. That will start my new weekly posts. 

Check out my social page to find my Twitter, Instagram, etc. I post on there frequently. 

Much love!!!


June is now here. Meaning summer is ~basically~ here, too. My life has been great, great, great until it just recently hit a low point. My boyfriend’s dog passed away, and I’m not going to disclose his personal issues on here, but I thought it was worth mentioning. 

But in other news, I’m trying to start writing for various other websites. I’m really excited to try and jump start my writing career. I’m going to be reading a lot more, writing a lot more, and just doing everything I can to help better my writing. I know all my posts are short, and hopefully one of these days I’ll conjure up some more. 

 Check out my poetry page!!!! Poetry


This past week has been crazy, so let’s get into it!! Friday, May 19th, I graduated high school. It was such an amazing feeling walking into the arena. I heard cheering and yells of encouragement. I saw so many smiling faces clapping as families eagerly waited for their child to walk through. It was an unforgettable feeling that I’ll truly cherish forever. Then on Sunday, my boyfriend and I had a joint grad party. It was a wonderful, sunny day. The weather had called for storms all day, and somehow we missed them entirely. The sun was out, but it wasn’t too hot. Everything was perfect. I got to see some of my family that I don’t see often, and he did as well. It was a fun day filled with love, laughter, and celebration. It’s time to see what’s next in life. God has blessed me with this life. I’m truly blessed with my family, friends, and boyfriend. I have an amazing support system. Life is good. 
Sorry for the abrupt change of blog formatting! I’ll get back in the swing of things. Much love!!! 


Well, today is the day. I graduate from high school today. It’s crazy to think how quickly this entire year has gone by. I’m excited for new things in life, but am also weary and nervous. Life has been super stressful lately. Not gonna lie. It seems everything that could *finally* be good for once, crumbles and obliterates to the ground. It’s frustrating, but I know one day it will be rewarding. The future is a broad, endless space where anything can happen. The future allows you to create yourself. God has blessed me with this amazing life. I’m so thankful for my family and friends. It’s amazing to look back and thank everyone who’s helped me get to this point. That’s all for this short post. Congratulations Class of 2017!!!

4 Days

Four more days left of my high school career. It’s weird. It still hasn’t hit me that I’m graduating next Friday. Life is life, and I’m still rolling in stress. I find myself drifting away from writing rather than using it as a reliever. I’m trying to work more on that, as I miss writing. Writing is a home to me. It’s a language that constantly changes, and I fall in love with it every single time. Writing gives me hope. It gives me a purpose. I love creating stories within my writing. This post is short, but I’m adding more poetry to the poetry page. Check it out!

The Night We Met

Here I go again with the slacking of writing posts. I have no excuses. Life hasn’t been super exciting lately, but it hasn’t been entirely awful either. It’s just been a stagnant, bitter, and melancholic type feel. You know? There are 7 days left in my senior year. I graduate May 19th, and I feel there are still a million things I need to do. We got our cap and gown last week; however, it still hasn’t clicked with me that I’m graduating in two weeks. Wow. I’m not quite sure when it will hit me. Of course I felt a little sentimental after the last first day of school; the last first choir concert. All of these “last firsts” haven’t quite hit me either. It still feels like I’ll be returning to high school in the fall.

I’m sure most people don’t quite enjoy reading about high school, and all the random nonsense that I conjure up in my posts, but thank you for reading it anyway. To end this post, I’m going to list some songs that I’ve been digging lately. And you for sure check them out because they’re amazing.

“The Night We Met” Lord Huron

“Knock on My Door” Faouzia

“In Cold Blood” alt-j

“I Keep Ticking On” Harmaleighs

“Only You” Yaz

Hope you’re having a wonderful week. Happy May!!

3 Weeks

Sorry for my absence. I had spring break, and then I got lazy!! It reminded me of how nice summer will be. I only have three weeks left of school, and right now it’s hard getting anything done. It’s hitting me slowly that soon school will be over. It’s scary to think I’ll be on my own very soon.

Ahh. But I’m excited to get life going. I still have things I need to get done for college, and that’s stressing me out. Life is so stressful. But, I’m going to Disney World in July and I’m very excited. I’ve been to Disney so many times. It’s amazing.

Thanks for sticking with me!! I’ll get back into more writing. For the meanwhile, I’ll link some pages for you to check out. Feel free to check me out on my socials Contact Me or get to know me better FAQ.

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